Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts

Sunday, January 8, 2012

"A Good Man Is Hard to Find"

We read that story in lit class. "A Good Man is Hard To Find", by Flannery O'Connor. To quickly summarize it, it starts out about a family taking a road trip. There is a mom, a dad (named Bailey), two children (a boy named John Wesley and a girl named June Star), and a grandmother. They take a car trip. On the way, the grandmother sees an old dirt road and remembers that there is a house down the old road. She manipulates everyone to take the road because she wants to see the house. But two things happen down the road. 1) The grandma remembers that the house she remembers was in Tennessee, and they were in Georgia. 2) The family has a car rec. Their car flips in a ditch, and they are stuck. Suddenly, another car shows up, and three people get out. Turns out, these three people are escaped convicts, one who is a murderer known as "The Misfit". The Misfit has his two buddies take everyone in to the woods and shoot them, but keeps the grandmother with him. He talks to her, and she begs for her life. But suddenly, the grandmother has an epiphony. She reaches out to the Misfit and says "You're one of my own. You're one of my babies." He jumps back and shoots her three times. As he and his two buddies are driving away, the Misfit says the closing line of the story: "She would've been a good woman, had there been someone there to shoot her every minute of her life."
When we finished reading this story, the classroom was filled with silence. Everyone was processing what had just happened and what had just been said. Finally someone broke it, saying "...wow." As our literature teacher began to discuss this story with us, I realized this story has a much deeper meaning. You see, the whole story, the grandmother thinks about "good people". She has an idea that "good" comes from appearances, money, being well educated, etc. Even when the Misfit is standing near her with a gun, she looks at his appearance. From the outside, you couldn't even tell he was a convict or murderer-he is described as looking "scholarly". She looks at his outward appearance and says "you wouldn't shoot a lady-you're a good man." Accourding to the grandmother, she herself is a "good woman". But on the inside-where "goodness" really is, she's not. The entire story, the grandmother wants her way-she wants to go to Tennessee, she wants to see a house, she wants to bring the cat, she wants this, she wants that. She always voices what she wants, and tried to even manipulate to get her way. But something happens to her near the end of the story.
Grandmother is sitting on the ground, begging for her life. Even at this point, it is a selfish plea, asking for the Misfit to spare her, and not her entire family. She is trying to manipulate the Misfit to not kill her, telling him he's a "good man" and whatnot. But when all her family has been shot and killed, and she suddenly realized she has no chance to live, she has what my literature teacher called "a moment of reality". What is more real than having a gun in your face, thinking you're going to die? In that moment, you would probably think of your family or your life, and realize what is "real" and "unreal". You would probably realize something about yourself that you could have changed in your life. That's what happened to grandmother. She had a moment-just one moment-in her life where she forgot herself. She didn't think about herself or her own wants or appearances. She became selfless for the first time in her life, and reached out to the Misfit. She saw him in a moment of distress and forgot that he was a murderer or that she was a lady. She forgot all that, and reached out to him, offering love and acceptance, as if he was her own baby. And this shocks the Misfit, so he kills her. But his final statement is the most profound statement in the entire story. "She would have been a good woman, if it had been somebody there to shoot her every minute of her life." If she had had a fun in her face ever minute of her life, she would have been truly good. The grandmother had an act going her whole life. She pretended to be a good woman. And it wasn't until the literal last moment of her life, when she had a gun pointed at her, that she changed.
This story made me really think about my life and how I am. When I come to the end of my life, I don't want to look back and think "I could have been so different-so much better." I don't want to be like the grandmother and think all my life that I was a truly "good" person. But I can't be a good person. Not on my own. Sure I can be polite to people and try to love them. But I can't on my own. I'm bound to screw up something or mess up something by myself. Which is why I need God. Why I need him to help me and whisper in my heart "Don't do that. That's not right" when I'm doing the wrong thing. I need Him by my side so that when I come to the end of my life, I don't look back and think "I could have changed so much." I want to look back and think, "I am so glad Jesus helped me be good everyday." I want to live my life in that "moment of reality", as if every minute of my life was my last. And with God's help, I can do that.

"She would have been a good woman,” The Misfit said, “if it had been somebody there to shoot her every minute of her life."

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Tah-Dah! A New Year's Post! :)

The following comic has nothing to do with what I'm about to post. I simply find it humorous:













And now to something relevant...
If you read my post about last New Years, let me tell you-2011 was great. So much better than 2010. This year, I did the same thing as I did last year: I listed out the "highlights" of my 2011. Last year, I looked back at many of my things I listed, and felt full of regrets and hurt. 2010 was just not a good year. So I decided to start 2011 different. I started it off right-centering it around God. And it was the best desicion I've ever made.
In 2011, I read completely through the bible for the first time in my life. It was a wonderful feeling, and I devoured every word of it's wisdom. (If you have never tried that, I encourage you to find a plan and read it. It is great.) Also in 2011, I began a relationship with a boy which became my first "real" relationship, you could say. It lasted 6 months, and even though it didn't work out, I took alot of good from it and learned alot of great things. I started a new season in my life in 2011-my senior year-and recieved confirmation about what God wants me to do after I graduate. And also, my dad started to travel every weekend to be mentored by another pastor last year. Yep. 2011 was a great year.
2011 was good, but it also came with it's own problems too. I lost two very close friends. One of my friends left me and my family. Through that experience, I learned that you never know who someone really is until conflict arises. I thought that this person was my closest friend. I called him my brother. However, when conflict came, he decided to leave, even though it hurt us all. But even when people like that leave us, we can turn to God for comfort-because no matter what we do, he will never leave us.
My other friend passed away. Through his death, I realized how many people I have around me that love me and care about me and are there for me. I also learned not to take advantage of any opportunity I have to love someone and let them know that, because you never know if that person will be there the next day. I will always miss my friend, and as much as I wish he were here to share the excitements of 2012 with me, I know that he is in a better place. I love him and miss him so much.
So though 2011 was a great year and taught me some great lessons, it is in the past. 2011 is gone and 2012 is here. I pray that in 2012, God will be able to use me and speak to me in a brand new way that I have never known before. I want to strengthen my relationship with him and focus on it even more so that I have ever done before. I want to center every relationship I have with everyone around God. I want God to bring me someone like my father has-a spiritual mentor to guide me in this critical time of my life. As I close out my senior year and move on to new things, I want 2012 to be the best year of my life. And with God on my side, I know that I will be able to do that.
-Happy New Year.
A Christian Teenage Girl

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Thank you JESUS.

(I am about to leave and catch a plane, so this post will be rather short.)
So with Thanksgiving coming up and whatnot, I have been thinking about thankfulness. What will you be thankful for this Thanksgiving? I know what I'll be thankful for. I'll be thankful for the wonderful family God has given me. For the incredible friends that surround me everyday. For a roof over my head, food to eat, and clothes to wear. But most of all, I will be thanking Jesus for dying for me. Thanking Him for His grace and mercy and unfailing love He gives me everyday, when I never deserved it in the first place. I'll be thanking God that I just woke up.


Shout with joy to the Lord, all the earth!


Worship the Lord with gladness.


Come before him, singing with joy.


Acknowledge that the Lord is God!


He made us, and we are His.


We are his people, the sheep of his pasture.


Enter into his gates with THANKSGIVING;


Go into his courts with praise.


Give thanks to him and praise his name.


For the Lord is good.


His UNFAILING love continues forever,


and his faithfullness continues to each generation.


-Psalms 100 (NLT)

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Tron and my life

So I just watched the movie "Tron", and this quote stood out to me:
"Just as everything was about to go black, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I opened my eyes, and there, standing above me, was the creator." -Quorra
I think this quote stood out to me because I kinda knew what she was talking about (even though she was talking about a fictional story and creator). She was talking about a time in her life when she was at the point of death-everyone around her was dead, and she was waiting to die just like them-and unexpectedly, her "creator" came and saved her. I thought "I've been there. I know how that feels."
At one time in my life, I was dying in my sin. I had nothing else to live for. Everyone I knew was dying in their sin. So I though I had nothing else. I laid down, and waited to die in my sin. When out of nowhere, I felt a hand on my shoulder. I felt someone saying "I'm here for you. get up." And when I opened my eyes, I saw my creator was there-God. He revived me. He gave me a reason to live. He gave me a reason to get up and go on with life. It's because of him that I am alive and joyful. He gave me life.
So I know this is shorter than some of my other blogs, but I just figured it was worth posting. :)